I haven't confronted H and I don't want to. But at the same time I can't cope being around him. He's mr. perfect dad this weekend, he's cleaning the house. I thought, that's right, you can go ahead and clean it.
He asked me if something was wrong, if I was mad at him. Where do I start? With the absolutely degrading videos you like...I won't go into the details, but it was pretty upsetting the sort of stuff he was looking at. Or should I mention instead the instant messaging account that can only be for one purpose? To meet those "hot whores who want to f**k you in your town." Lots of that.
I just saw the links on Friday night, last night I looked them up for myself. Friday we drove in the car for two hours while he went on and on and on and on and on about HOW BUSY he is, that's why he's too busy to talk to me, and he's too busy for any of that computer stuff...no time for that, he's busy busy busy. He is SO BUSY!! Later that night, something came up in a conversation about lying, and he told the kids, The Breakaways don't lie. He stood up like he was George Washington and said I.Don't.Lie.
I just watched all this in disbelief. I said, what about the lie you told S12's coach last week? He looked at me in total surprise for a second and then frowned and said, NEVER bring that up again. Because after all, we're playing Let's Pretend, and I'm not playing right.
I don't know how I'm going to get through this day. We had plans to go to a really exciting event I've been looking forward to all year. But I don't know if I can play Let's Pretend today.
