My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

Thanks, BeingMe. I appreciate the ideas. Part of my problem is that I'm perpetually broke, and I have D13 with me most of the time--and her visits with her dad are rarely planned far in advance. She's there when it's convenient for him, and I don't know when that will be more than a couple of days in advance, if that. it's further isolating, but I can't exactly find it in me to mind it!

oooh--sushi meetup group. I could love that! lol--the Toastmasters thing...I used to teach adults and have spoken at state conferences, and have talked in church and done funerals. not that I couldn't be better at it, but it's not something I have never done.

sigh...my professor friend wrote me about several things, unfortunately including having met and recently dated an "amazing, beautiful lady." He was telling me that she dumped him--but it's hard to hear. Not that he shouldn't date--it's just hard to hear. I just have this dread of getting an email that he's met someone wonderful and is in love (altho he says he's not ready, I know how lonely this time is). He's telling me this because he can talk with me about anything--which is good--but I'm not always ready to hear everything. Where we stand is that we care very much for each other, we have an amazingly close relationship, we have feelings we're not ready to label--but we're in no position to pursue anything deeper with each other besides just getting to know each other better. But we're 800 miles apart with no plans to get together again any time soon, and there are "amazing, beautiful ladies" right there. I hate being this insecure! I know I have a lot of healing to do before getting into any kind of relationship--but there's so much potential here that I can't help but hope we end up together when we're both in a better place. And unfortunately, because I feel so isolated generally, it's even more difficult to remain detached here. It's a dangerous place to be.

Any words of wisdom? Anyone?