Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Gilrs.. thankyou, I am excited too. Its a BIG deal us going back to Greece. Its both our favourite place to go and the last romantic holiday we had was there (to Kalni's hometown in fact! We flew into Kalamata).

I had some more convo's with him about Helen. I finally admitted I checked his phone Sept 2007 and found calls to her, he said he wasnt interested in her then, but she had called him to ask how his broken wrist was and he texted her a bit, as a friend. He insists thats all. I guess I have to let it go. We talked twice recently, only for 1/2 hour now...I was home at the weekend, I was planning to see the Piscean (to tell him to his face I was back with my ex now).. I drove to his workshop, it was closed. I drove to his house and walked around the back to just go in and did this instinctively, eventhough I have only been there in fact twice I think in 12 years. Maybe 3. I just knew it would be fine though to turn up like that, no matter how many years go by it would always be fine. I didnt post here, but before I got back with bf, the Piscean phoned me a few times and said he would wait 35 years for me, if necessary... Anyway, he wasnt in and I sat outside and felt strangely tearful.

I've only ever really loved 2 men. The Piscean was my first love and a little part of me is forever his, but I couldnt have him as a life partner (Aries Moon, too moody!) my life is with my bf, but that doesnt mean that I sometimes wonder if I shuoldnt have just let go sooner, if he came back, so be it.. as I said to Kalni early, it wouldnt have changed the outcome. Maybe I should have had an OM, or dated the Piscean. I didnt as I didnt feel it would have been fair if I wasnt over my ex.

I'm trying to decide on another college course, so I asked him last night "depends on our future plans...". He paused and calmly said "you mean children?" I said, is that what you think? He paused for ages and calmly said, well, you could always reapply later...So I assume children IS in the future plan, but I dont think he has clicked that I am going to be 39 next bd (and my Nan went through the menopause at 39), so time is running out...