#66 Looking for Susnhine...

[AliSuddenly]

Hey K, Sorry I missed you this weekend, I was away again... I must phone you and make arrangements! We have the leave booked but no flight yet, but we are still arriving into Athens Saturday.

I'm so glad you got to see the monk, good for you. I understand what you are saying about him, he applies his faith, but in a pragmatic, real world way. He sounds like a sensible man. I see what you are saying about having to protect yuor son too and be the bigger person. Wow, you have really been through it this past 2-3 years (me too). I sometimes wonder how I made it, looking back and remembering just how depressed and devastated I was and evennow I wonder.. was it really all worth it?? Maybe I should have just accepted it and let go alot sooner, I doubt it would have changed the final outcome and I could have spared myself so much misery along the way. That realisation makes me want to tell the Newcomers that, but I dont bother to post, as you cant tell anyone and like them, I wouldnt have listened.

I'm feeling philosophical today! But then, I read somewhere this weekend that us early March born Pisceans have "paid our dues" and are nearly out the other side now.. I said September was an end date to suffering didnt I and we'd be out and never as bad again by October. Thats how it feels to me. I have this 2 week holiday to get through in September and some conversations about the future and then I will "know" by October and the saga will be in the past (but the memory of how bad it was will always remain hey). I feel it will be the same for you, altough we are walking different paths.

Cant wait to meet you mate and eat dinner with you! xxx