mw, Whether it's mlc or just waw symptoms, you still need to separate your finances/assets to protect yourself and your family. You must live your life to the fullest and let her go for a while. You can still move on and leave the door ajar, but do not wait in one spot for a very long time. We do not want to see you get stuck.
It's time now to look at your situation (monetary) as a business deal gone south and prepare the necessary paperwork to protect yourself. Right now, it doesn't matter whether she's in mlc or not...she's gone and has given the impression she's done.
Take it one second at at time and look to the day for new experiences and try to find one thing to smile about.
We are all here for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.