I`ve no problem with H going home. In fact I`m glad of the break!
I know I`m dithering right now and I`m sure its because when H goes home he ALWAYS comes back in foul humour.I know his mother is in his ear and swinging out of him re not separating and not letting him make his own decisions and I know he blames me for that.
Going home just sets him back.
I find the sheer HATE so difficult to live with especially at times like that.
I knew to stay out of his way last night. I did greet him and said DS had said SIL was expecting a baby. I got a grunt in return. Enough to know not to push my luck with his humour.
So I did the best thing for me-1 1/2 hrs of yoga and meditation. H kept coming into the room-to get this or that-but really I feel he just was angling to get at me. At one point his foot tipped my arm(no not quite a kick) just a little threat thing that he seems to need to do. I just ignored it.
I`m telling you, he`s steaming.It may be his way of pushing me to move on S. Honestly, its tempting.
No point in going there with my therapist or anyone else-they think I should call it quits.
Just have DB keeping me in it. Appreciate your efforts!
DS told me that MIL said next time they`re going down I have to go down too... what a message to give the kid! Glad she doesn`t phone me anymore
