What C did say to me was to forget last week and start afresh from tomorrow. That I can live with. I will do my best to get out each and every day this week - that is my public pledge right here, right now (I sound like Fatboy Slim)!! If I can't get out due to the storms which are on their way in, I WILL get on the treadmill every day. How's that? There you go, I have made a contract!
Just told our friend that I won't meet up in HK with him. I could use the break but there's so many con's to the plan and not enough pro's. I have to watch my back legally, as well as everything else.
I think that working on the me with C is a much more sensible option. Was just feeling so down about nc with H and it all came spilling out.
I wish that you were closer too! Big house with pool and spa looking for guests at Christmas - that's unless I've been turfed out on my ear by then. Fed up of living this life in total isolation but determined to see it through and not contact H yet ... hardest thing I have ever done, I'm sure. This is the longest time we have ever been without contact. To him, he probably hasn't even noticed.
Must concentrate more on ME and less on H. Mantra, repeat. Sleep on it.
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
