OK, after a very poor decision this morning on my part, followed by a beating by Jim and Mach with some rather hefty 2 x 4 s, I decided to head to the mountains on my bike to clear my head. Note to self: riding a motorcycle in the freezing rain is less than fun. My one hour trip turned into 6. Fine. I went to my favorite spot hoping to be alone and process some stuff. Turns out there was some festival or other such nonsense. It was wall to wall people. I go to my favorite restaurant to wait out the rain - everyone around me wants to chat. What is up with that? Clearly, my "do not disturb" face is NOT working.
So, the thought occurred to me on this ride: what if this isn't an MLC? What if she just stopped loving me? She's moved on. End of story? If there is no MLC, she's not going to wake up. There is no chance at reconciliation. She's just done. Fini.
