Lol Sara, I work for the US fish and wildlife service. I work with sea otters and there are often, um, "fluids" involved. I absolutely love it, and the money is good, but its seasonal, and it ends the end of this month. It would be there for me next summer, but I just cant spend the winter not working again. Since Im a full time student, I cant even get unemployment.

I think that if this message is expressed to him at all, it will be verbally. Maybe I can use this as a script, but it was intended to be about me. Not about him and how much I apologized for things, it was intended to be more about me just accepting my part in the sitch.

I am taking the trip, I have to go get a new military ID so I can have health insurance again, not to mention a ton of end of season work stuff to do in the city. Whats a little strange is that H and I will be in the city at the same time. He is flying in at 130 and I will be there by then. Briefly I considered meeting him at the airport. I had to get this enrollment for from him a while ago to do it without him being present, and yesterday he offered to just go with me, and then I wouldnt even need the form. So I suggested that we meet up so we could travel to the base together, and he said that he hadnt decided if he was going to drive from the city, or fly down to Homer, I think thats legitimate, not rejection.

But, heres what strikes me... If we dont do it when we are both in the city together, we will have to spend an entire day together on a special trip to Anchorage, 4 hours on the rd each way, Im not even sure I want to be trapped in a car with him that long! Im going to bring my paperwork with me and just get the ID on this trip I think, its not often I can take an entire day and do something as frivilous as go to the city, so it this is good timing for several reasons.

I have 3 things left on my to do list. My dad and I got the new hot water heater put in, cleaned the bathroom (including the shower curtain!), my bedroom and the garage. I even did my homework for 2 classes!

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...