Dad will pass away soon. Just when I think I've come to terms with it, I'm reminded of how hard this is and how many people are affected. My mom came into the hospice room tonight and said she wished she could go with him... makes me think of The Notebook. But that was a movie, and this is real life. 57 years, and she doesn't know how to live without him. Most of us posters here have been married for less years, but the same questions... Tough stuff.
I sent a message to my H today at my FIL's suggestion. Just let him know the status and if he wanted to come by and say goodbye, he should feel welcome. He wrote back "I'll try but I'm super busy this week". I know he is busy, and may not be in town much... but, the lack of compassion and seeing outside his own stuff is truly mindblowing. An alien replaced my H, a droid, and this guy doesn't know how to empathize, say he's sorry or reach out in even the smallest way.
I wish I could better understand his position. But that reminds me that my C said it's futile to trying to understand something that makes no sense at all. H has temporarily lost his mind, and until he wants to make changes, he is lost to me and to my dad and to the rest of us.
I started the pass sales at H's store this weekend. He hasn't been there b/c another sale going on, but I've had a chance to catch up with other friends and it feels more comfortable being at the shop now which is good.
Probably won't post until Dad passes away now. We're at the hospice room most of the time. But it helps to write, and try to process what's going on...
