Today was our block party. I had a good time hanging out with friends and watching my kids ride their bikes back and forth all day. I had some interaction with W. When I did it was good, we got along, she didn't talk down to me or anything. She got along ok with my folks. The only time I got a little sad was watching her dance to the dj to songs we used to dance to. She looked so happy out there dancing. I quickly tried to change my thought process and tried to be happy that she was happy. It helped. I was glad she was enjoying herself. I really did enjoy myself, though. Thinker wrote in giving advice to someone that he was attending Retrouvaille, but wasn't just waiting for it and pinning everything on it like some others here. I think it's sage to say he was talking about me. Point taken. I am trying hard to detach. For a long time I have expected a text saying I'm sorry, or I want to be back to normal. I have since accepted that it isn't coming. I expected her to come and sit on the couch after the kids are in bed and watch tv. She won't. So I keep trying to detach, keep the retro weekend in the back of my mind. Please continue to pray for us.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
