Tricked into seperation

[lonelywolf]

Well, I sobbed for an hour after it was over, but I did get to talk to two of my kids on the phone (the oldest, true to her nature, was acting all boogery and didn't want to talk - but she's like that a lot. She's never really talked to anyone on the phone).

It kills me that the second youngest is speaking in sentences now. He sounded so cute on the phone.

I did talk to her father on the phone a bit, and he "assured" me that this entire divorce was her idea and they didn't push her in that direction at all (though they're paying for the lawyer). I don't really believe him, but I'm sure they've convinced themselves they're doing the right thing and that they are blameless and its all my fault.

I have to realize my wife is gone. I don't know when I will see the kids next. It hurts almost more than I can bear. But I will just have to soldier on and make it through somehow.