Moving truck came today and house is a lot emptier, in many different ways. I was trying to think of a letter to write or a speech to give W, but in the end I said basically "I hope you find the peace and healing you are after." she said she hoped so too. Also said she had imagined this moment a lot in the past couple of years, but this is different than she thought it would be. She imagined it with me yelling and telling her off rather than how I have acted (with calm and as much love as I can). I'm thankful she said that and glad I continue to show through actions that her thoughts of me are wrong.
At some point this morning W said to me something referring to the hopeful but unlikely future I have described where we get our stuff together and reconcile. She said next time or whatever, she will wear her wedding dress that she has saved and still can fit into, and we will exchange vows on an island beach with just us. So somewhere in there, she has at least allowed her mind to imagine such a scenario.
H35 W34 S4 | T-10 yrs M-6 yrs WAW said M over 04/09 | Living separate since 09/09 Thread #1 Thread #2 Thread #3
