Back home again, rather tired it really will have to be an early night for me tonight! I cant burn the candle at both ends so if Im not eating properly at least I need to sleep properly.
Had a fab time with madam, went flying over fences with great gusto bless her. She really has been fantastic this summer and taken her mum to new and higher riding skills, the only down side is getting in the car and realising I cant ring H and say "hey guess what we did" Bit of a joke really as one of his last emails during his trial two weeks separation, he said he would never not want to hear or know what madam and I were up too, funny how he didnt ask after either madam or moggly the last time he called.
Oh well will have a nice shower later and make myself look nice and sit and relax, need to get on re-reading DR again so I can absorb some more useful knowledge and techniques. Its rather amusing really as I quite enjoy getting dressed up and putting perfume on now, and of course behaving slightly flirtish, yesterday I put on my new pretty black underwear and my thoughts as I looked in the mirror was "your loss H" although I couldnt think of anyone else seeing me like that, that is so a long long way off, Im not sure I can even contemplate being with someone else.. There is still too much love in situ for H, although I have come to terms with the fact that what ever happens he will have to love the new me not the old me which might take some getting used to! Oh well of to see how you are all doing! x
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
