Oh man I ruined last night. My friend was throwing a brithday party for his daughter. We both showed up and things weren't so bad. We didn't talk much but I kept noticing her text to a bunch of different guys. Which or course annoyed the crap out of me.

Towards the end of the night my friends and I went downstairs to karoake. I have been drinking heavily and I should have stoped. She came down and usually comes and listens to me sing. I started to dedicate some songs to her. She ignored me and I remember just getting mad. I knew if I didn't leave things would go south. I told her hey I'm gonna go home. And I don't know how it started there. I just remember one of her friends, who is like a little sister to me said"your like my ex!"

That's when things got worst. I hate hate her friends ex boyfriend and so does everyone else. He was physically and emotional abusive,ruined her apartment,broke her windows in her car, and he cheated on her many many times. He is those guys who have a big mouth and talks trash to everyone.

I guess it didn't make the situation better. I was stuned because I had protected this friend from her ex a bunch of times also. (She's like my little cousin.) She started to raise her voice at me and I started to raise mine. Next thing I know I have 2 of my guy friends holding me down to calm down. She left and took the kids home. I just had no control on myself.

I quit drinking that's it. I was doing so well untill I was drunk. I regret doing all that because I know if I hadn't been drinking I would have been more cool and more control.

Wonder how today is going to be.


Me:27
W:24
S:2
D:9 months
M:3 years
Together for 8 years
Bombed : 6/11/09
Moved out: 6/27/09
Found out about her affair 9/7/09
(she started her's at 6/25/09)
Begged n plead 7/25/09
started DB 8/17/09