WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

Boy it was a long day. It was a ton of fun for the boys and I. We went with my cousin and his wife and kids. My 3 year old was very clingy to me as the water rides were a bit much for him. I could see it was bothering my 7 year old that he couldn't get much time with me. I had my cousin's wife to watch my 3 year old so I could spend time with my 7 year old. My 3 year old put up a fuss, and it was hard, but I thought it was important to spend time with both boys.

When we got done, we didn't get home and to bed till an hour past their normal bed time. Even then, my 3 year old fought going to bed, as he was falling asleep watching a show.

It was a little tough today seeing my cousin with his wife and family, as well as all the other intact families together. I did get a little down as I reflected on all the lies and lack of remorse. I broke out of it quickly though as I am really trying to take a break from the emotional hurt that I have been feeling.

I had the boys call her. My 3 year old didn't want to talk again. My 7 year old was pretty brief as he hung up after just talking 2 minutes.

When I put my boys to bed, my 7 year old said his favorite part of the day was when he and I went on a couple of water slides together, without his brother. He second favorite was one of the rides the 3 of went on. I am so glad I made the time to spend some quality one on one time with him.

It really reminds me of the quote of focusing on remembering the moments, not the things......