A Little Epiphany - (and a newbie delurking)

[Dia]

A lot of it was subconscious. OM was on my case all the freaking time to get the papers done. My therapist was pointing out that not doing them was sending a certain message to OM and did I really want to send that message. Even H, when I asked him if this is really what he wanted, would dodge the question and say he thought it was 'for the best'.

But I didn't want to file those godforsaken papers. I didn't want to be divorced. I caved to the pressure from OM, from my therapist, from H - and I hate that I did that.

So ride it out, folks, even if your WAS *does* initiate a filing. Don't help them meet deadlines, don't be too hasty to get things all negotiated out. Leave it entirely on the WAS.

Later, I knew I was stalling and I stalled on purpose. But in the beginning, it was subconscious.