Feel very distant from W. Nothing she's done. I just have absolutely no attraction to her. In fact, tonight, it was work just to sit in the same room with her. Tonight, her attempts at humor and chattiness actually turned me off quite a bit. I know I'm supposed to be trying to reconnect, but I really don't feel like it today or tonight. I suppose I'm entitled to the occasional "bad" day if that's what this is.
The more I think about it, the more I realize I am disaapointed that W took D to a gathering of three other couples and their kids. Here is the ridiculous part - she kind of asked me earlier in the week if S and I wanted to go. Said no, S and I wanted to watch the 3:30 game. Then, I was disappointed she went rather than watch the game with us. I know how ridiculous I am being. Perhaps this is just the vent through which my other pent up emotions are flowing at the moment.
Very strange. Not falling off the wagon, and I'm sure I'll be fine in the morning. Just not liking her very much tonight.
