Thanks Oz - my PMA has taken a bashing and when H was in his 'evil' mode, it did nothing to help, I can tell you!
I really must work on increasing my PMA - for I know that I am a good person and I know that I am worthy of a happy and satisfying life ... with or without H. The more that I have been thinking of what he has done lately, the more I realise that I don't need to put up with this treatment ... but the thoughts soon slip through the holes in the colander when I realise the situation that it has left me in. I am now trying hard to cut the wheat from the chaff in a bid to rescue me and let H live the life that he has chosen for himself.
I do love my H but this is not him right now and I don't like or want to be with this new person. I feel, strangely enough, like I have been widowed. How awful is it to say that, but it's how I feel?
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
