I haven't ever posted on your thread, but I've been reading with great interest. Although our situations are quite different, one dynamic that's similar is that our wives begin to show interest when WE pull back. I don't understand it...but it sure does exist.
Anyways...the guilt your talking about...is it b/c you still love your wife very much, even with all of the pain she's put you through? You're also probably a very honorable individual, being military and all, so your conscience may be telling you not to give up on your marriage, or at the very least, get a divorce b/f starting up new relationships. Just guessing.
Kind Regards, LFH
ME: 38 W: 35 D2.5 and S5 Married 12 years Separated (same house, different rooms) INILWYAM by W: 4/16/2009 The day W requested a D: 4/17/2009