I've been reading your thread and hope you're doing better today. Did you get out to do some exercise? I know that it is hard to do things without your S but are you getting out to go to the cinema, dinner with friends or just following up on stiff you like.
Yes, it is a sucky situation. But I always say "This is where I am today but it is not where I will be tomorrow". And Things are hard but they will get better.
