Yeah, back on the rollercoaster again today. After a pretty good week last week, he seemed more distant on Thursday before he left for the weekend. His weekend to have the kids, but he didn't take them. He said because he would be getting back late Monday night before their first day of school.
I suspected that OW would be going with him, but was not sure because he had told me earlier that she would not be. Well, change of plans, because she did.
I see the positives in this that he did not take the kids with him. That would have been unbearable for me.
I called him to let him know that the kids were here and after a very short, very cold conversation (I asked if she was there with him and he confirmed) we hung up.
Why? Why can he come to me with these signals, insinuating time and time again that he is "cooling off" with her, then go away for a long weekend with her? The last time he said that he was backing off with her, I told him that I had heard that a million times now. He was surprised by that.
I can't control him. I know that. He is making his own choices and I am making mine. He seems to be emerging from the MLC behavior a bit, actually THINKING about things, but I don't know. I keep asking myself how much longer I can hang on here. Or rather, how much longer I SHOULD.
