re-read the posts that we sent you last spring and summer. There were at least a dozen ideas that cost little to nothing. I just posted that to you and it's obvious you didn't do it.
As for what is tempting you, I assume it's OW and that you think dancing with one will lead to something. I do a lot of theater and it's never been a problem to have a "love scene" and mix it up with real life. You just do it.
I think you're very very lonely as you admit. To "cure" that, you need friends and to have friends, you have to be one. Volunteer for something or take a class in something and help others, and again,
RE-READ the earlier posts. I want to post to others now so it's sort of a drag to have to repeat myself. You have the information on your thread. In fact you have ALL The answers already on your thread. K4, you stop yourself so much. Just read the excuses you have the past one day for not GAL more, and then enlarge it over time to see how you've slowed yourself down in progressing...
Take charge of your life. This isn't complicated. Don't be weak. Don't preach. Just take charge of your life and happiness. You once said that you had a hard time "manning up" b/c you "never had to before"....so it's long overdue, don't you think? You know, you really can do this. The question is "if /when" and that is entirely up to you.
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