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I was having a pretty decent day yesterday until around 6:30 p.m. My W was taking the kids for the weekend to her parent's lake-place. As she was loading the kids in her SUV, my five year old son decided that he didn't want to leave me behind. Oh boy did he pitch a fit. "I want daddy to go" in a loud crying voice is all he could say. It broke my heart...big time. This saga went on for just a few minutes, but it felt like hours to me.

Previously, I had taught my kids the "Little Light of Mine" song to sing whenever they missed me or were afraid...to make them feel better. So that's what we sang as I buckled the kids into their seats. My W sat silently in her driver's seat while this saga unfolded. After I buckled the kids in, settled them down, and kissed them goodbye...I closed their doors and headed for my car. My W started to pull out of the garage and then beeped the horn and waved to say goodbye to me. With all of this calamity, I had forgotten to say goodbye to my W. I waved back and jumped into my car to do some shopping. I was not happy!

So, for the rest of that evening, I went to the local golf store to demo new golf clubs. I must have hit several hundred golf balls last night to vent my frustration and anger. I felt alot better afterwards. This morning was spent golfing...and I had a blast.

I'm GALing the best I can this weekend. This afternoon was spent watching college football as well as spending some time at the gym. This evening I plan on going to a sports bar to catch the Gator game.

I'm really focused on keeping myself busy this weekend as not to be consumed with my freaking situation. We'll see...I feeling pretty solid right now.

Oh, and I forgot to mention, I was not served with divorce papers this past week like my W threatened two weeks ago. Just 41 days to go till Retrovaille. I can do it!.

-LFH