So S and I are going to watch football this afternoon (our team)and W is taking D to a swimming party at one of D's house - actually more of a small get together.
Still dealing with some resentment/impatience with W as well as those "do I really want her back" feelings. I can recognize the latter come from my needs not being met for what seems like a while (4 mos) and that my feelings for W could be re-kindled, but she's got to show some sign of wanting to work on the M. If she doesn't, ok, I can move on. Damn this waiting.
This temporary phase will pass. Just needed to get it out.
Also did a great job not letting her bait me into an argument. My perception of her (which is mind reading to an extent) is she always has to be right, even when she isn't. This is a BIG deal we will have to work on should that day come. I was very close to arguing with her, but made myself not. Didn't let her make me a doormat - those days are long gone.
