Jak and Friends, The spiral staircase represents our climb towards happiness, and we must battle the "devil on the staircase." It is described in a poem by T.S. Eliot called Ash-Wednesday, if you want to look into it. I'm reading a spiritual autobiography called the Spiral Staircase by Karen Armstrong.
Things continue to be stable. There has been no sign of my W's dance friend this past week. My W says that he helps her to realize how difficult it is to be around someone who is verbally abusive, irritable, short-tempered, irresponsible, impulsive. She has been on good behavior since she returned from her Puerto Rico trip with him. She said that he was a terrible travelling companion.
She wants to travel back to PR with me in January. I told her as long as there's a plan to pay for it. It's only a three hour flight from Ohio. We could probably fly and stay for a week for around 2K (much less than Hawaii last year).
I'm planning on joining her at times at her latin dance venues. The difference this time is that I'll also have my ballroom venues for diversity, instead of relying on one type of venue to meet my dance needs. I'm responsible for my own dance needs, and partner with her as my choice, versus in the past being overly dependent and loyal to her. I think having my own growing network of ladies raises her level of respect for me.
When I came home on Thursday, she was frazzled by spending a day with the dog. He acts like a dog, and barks at the school children walking by the house. He barks when he's outside, for us to come out and play with him. My W can only take him in small doses.
She wanted me to drive her to her salsa venue. I didn't want to go, and want to break the pattern of being her chauffer. I wasn't in a state of mind to have a good time so told her no. She wasn't happy about it, but didn't argue. My intention isn't to be mean, but to value my time. She ended-up having a great time on her own, I would have been crabby and not a good partner for the trip.
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CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
