Don't beat yourself up Nell, you are a newbie it comes with that dreaded word... time. Don't you just hate it think about what I have said though and when you are ready, unlease Nell on the world.
I too have been dragged down this path I have been forced to go down, but it has forced me to grow in ways that I wouldn't have had it not happened.
Right, it is midday and I am still lounging in bed reading and faffing around. Some things never change Lunch, cleaning and friend coming round for me today. Have a good evening.