New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

Journaling...

I haven't heard from W since the divorce proceedings were dismissed last week. I called twice to talk with the boys and my w, but the phone kept ringing and ringing, so I just left a message twice. I decided to not call again for now. My W usually is good at calling back for the kids to talk with me, so I don't know what's going on or what to think of it. By this time I'm sure my W also knows about the dismissal of the D proceedings.

I decided to not read much into it and carry-on as I've been doing with GALing activities. Yesterday I went to the gym and spent the afternoon with a co-worker's family and had dinner with them. It was good to be with a family. I sure miss that atmosphere.

Today, I'll go back to the gym, work on the yard, and go to a church dinner to just be around people. I have to say I can't help it but thinking about my W and kids. I really want to call again, but I don't want to appear as if I was desperate, needy, or stalking my W if I repeatedly call. So I decided not to call. My W will eventually call to let me talk with the boys.

I have no idea. I just keep thinking positively and give my W the benefit of the doubt. I always try to never think ill of her and hope that there surely was a good reason why she couldn't answer her cell phone when I called twice on THU.

Anyway,when will all this end?...

JR