I'm going to cut to the chase! Apologies in advance woman style
Everything I am reading is about you waiting for h, doing things so he will notice, hanging around in the hope that h will do something. This will not help you. This time is about YOU now not your h - he is off doing his own thing. Stop counting days, this is your game plan for the moment. You aren't going to contact him. Plus if you are going to count days you count from his last contact - which is 4 or 5?
In Michele's words 'just do it'. Don't wait. If you had the security of knowing that your h would be away for a year but he would be back you'd be playing things very differently in terms of living your life. Act 'as if' that is what is happening. You already said there was nothing you could do and now you are signed up for the course. Didn't it make you feel better once you did it? But I know you probably didn't 'feel' like doing it before...
Don't hang onto the house because you think a house will bring him back. Honey, would you want him back if he was just returning for a house? You could always rent like I am doing? Do what is right for you.
Only you have the power to help you and YOU are worth it.
