Think I am dealing with some new stuff now. I am quite happy in my detachment and realise it is a step towards my next phase in life. Actually I am happier than I thought I would be.
I've read so many posts to get my head around detachment issues and I can see how much I was enabling H and allowing him to cake eat. H has really been having the best of both worlds.
Now my thoughts move on. I will continue to remain silent and see what comes of it..........however, I am caught with two situations in mind....Dia has had such success, showing incredible patience and fortitude, not to mention creative dbing. In her sitch she has slowly but surely looked at ways to move closer to H. On the other hand Gucci through many others has indicated that when signs of moving on are shown H's have suddenly shown a renewed interest.
I wonder if I need another DB coaching session for clarification here....
I made progress and H and I were enjoying much more than we had in months but I think my impatience killed that off. I still think I can rekindle that if and when I need to.
However, my other option is to bring it to a head and start to take steps to wrap it all up. This would be totally unexpected in H's eyes as usually I'm a procrastinator and up until now I've said if you want to do that then I won't stop you but I won't file myself. We still have business interests which stand in the way which could have a big impact but perhaps I could initiate discussions??? Beyond divorce is a whole, new life which I am looking forward to. I like to think H is part of it but maybe I am deluding myself.
Either way H is not a friend as he claims and anyway it's not a friend I need. My thoughts for today and definitely subject to change at a moment's notice!! End of reflection!!!
