I am suffering the effects of my lack of fitness now
Without exercise, I would have had to have been committed...are you exercising? Getting in shape?
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It feels like for every nice contact we have (which has only been two lately), he then has to hand out a 'punishment' to punctuate that he still feels the same.
Yep, trust me, a lot of contact sucks too. H and I are in constant contact and up until just yesterday, any positive contact was followed by negative because he was so committed to his idea of being "done" and the positive interactions confused and pissed him off. The only reason why last night was ok is because I am living my own life and have no expectations. But it felt like a waste of my time.
I lost so much weight and had panic attacks for months. I still wake up so twisted and sweaty...but I get up and do my day and do it with hope and a good attitude. You keep going.
