I am not quite sure what you mean by backbone him - can you please explain?
Actually, I just left the house this am, and after work took a walk and psyched myself up again. I pumped up my anger at his bad behavior, instead of cringing in pain. I worked myself up to feel my power, and everytime I felt scared of his anger, felt myself walking on eggshells to please him I told myself I was not going to do it. I talked myself into some self esteem and personal power.
Lo and behold the crazy wild bull that was chasing me around the ring this morning was a more rational human being when he arrived for dinner - like my old H again.
He's all over the map!
But like I said, they are psychic or something. They can sense the fear = like a wild animal.
God knows what I'll be faced with tomorrow, but I was proud that I took all your advice and decided to brush myself off again and focus on ME. FOR ME. NOT TO PLEASE HIM. That is truly good stuff.
