Play House

[Yoyowife]

Everyone on the boards has always said,"When it's time to let go, you will know." Of course lots of people in the "real" world told me long before I made my decision that I needed to let go, but I wasn't ready. I think perhaps if I I had been strong enough to let go a long time ago, my situation might have worked out differently. I let him string me along for way too long. I let him cake eat. Something I'm not proud of, but true.

As you all know I have made the decision I was ready to let go a while back. During DD18's senior year I was leaning heavily towards that decision, but I wanted to let her get all of her "senior" events out of the way and not ruin her year. As soon as she graduated, I was in my lawyers office the next week.

Today one of our substitues that I have not seen probably since April of last spring stopped by my room to chat. She knew what has been going on in my life. She asked me how I was doing? I told her I was good. She said I can really tell that you are doing well. Did you and your H work things out? I told her no, that I had finally let go. She said she could tell I was much happier. Funny thing one of my other co-teachers told me about two weeks ago that she noticed how happy I had seemed lately. So I guess my actions really show it.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, that even if the marriage doesn't work out, we all can be happy and comfortable, but we have to do it at our own pace.