25yrsmlc, I appreciated your post so much, I saved a copy so I can refer to it frequently. I am like Kevin in that I believe God can heal my M. I can't do it but He can. At the same time, I want to live my life and become the man God wants me to be and not some milquetoast version of myself (as I now see myself). I am so worried about making the same mistakes I made in the past that could have contributed to my Ws departure that I am making new mistakes that are equally unappealing. I admit that I "hide" at home and other places that are safe from the possibility of a new R starting up since I am incredibly weak when I am around the fairer sex, especially one that expresses an interest in me.
(I apologize Kevin for asking this in your thread) 25yrsmlc, would you please read my last post in my current thread and provide any recommendations that could help me move forward in a positive sense? Yes, I will still want a Christ-centered life but I don't see that as being in opposition to what I am asking and that is to live my life while I let God work on my M.
