It sounds to me like you did a great job. You had her laughing and talking.
I know that feeling of getting kicked in the gut. Projecting a strong confident happy man in her presence is key. Vent out all the negative stuff away from her.....It is important to get it out, just not to her......
Sorry you did not sleep well. The thoughts and stress that keep us awake are crazy. Sleep is very important. It helps us stay clear. I still have my prescription sleeping pills and take them as needed.
W does not know how to be happy. She is trying to figure that out. Setting her free to figure this out is a gesture of love.
It is also your opportunity to find your happiness without putting it into her (or another's) hands.
I have a good relationship with MsR2C's family based on no R talk with them. My father tried R talking with her. That made things worse. My goal is civil R with her. I believe it is important to keep them out of your R.
I focus on making positive changes in me and that alone is hard. Any reason I think I can change MsR2C? I can just control my thoughts, words and actions. I ask myself this question "Is what I am about to do going to make things better or worse?"
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
