Yeah, it'll be a positive step. Moving forward. smile Thanks LFA.

Guess I'm driving myself crazy this morning. Talked to my sister last night, and just talking through the realities of the situation... ugh. I've been in this state of mind that, this can be saved. Nobody else sees it, or even encourages it. The person I'm used to being my partner, the person I've discussed decisions with, is causing it. Talked to my buddy last night at length too. Good listener.

After dreaming about her night before last, it was hard to come home after work yesterday. I did mention my dream in a lighthearted way to see her reaction, she smiled and said something like sounded like a good dream. She was frazzled, and I do admit that I sat her down and rubbed her shoulders for a little bit. I know what you guys are going to say, I guess I still hope that bridging some small amount of intimacy will make a difference. It worked last time. Well, monitoring results. I know, guys.

Just feeling down this morning. Not sick-to-my-stomach-laying-in-the-bottom-of-the-shower down, just I'm not sure what to do next down.

Yes, I'm feeling impatient. I know, I've got to get a grip.

It's like that feeling where I've pulled a muscle and can't get comfortable, and nothing to do about it.

She's planning to be gone this weekend, so I won't see her for a few days. I guess that's that. Saving me from myself.

Her L supposedly vacated the dates, for court on 10/1, and the mediation appt today - W called the court and they still have today's thing scheduled. Not sure if I need to go or what. Guess I'll call myself here in a little bit. Would hate for everthing to go to pot because of some misunderstanding.

Here's an interesting thing. W had had a habit of, when she's trying to remember something, she puts her wedding ring on the other hand to remind her. SHe's been wearing the ring on other hand nonstop here lately. I thought it was because of what's going on. When I asked her this morning to call me when she's got confirmation on this appt, she said - oh, yeah, let me put my ring on the other hand - and I noticed she had it on her left hand this morning, until she did this. Well, I guess a little postive thing - maybe she's been trying to remember a lot of things lately. Yeah, that's weak, I know, but still.

OK, well, one day at a time.
I have the kids for part of the weekend, then taking them to in-laws. I have no idea of plans for the weekend.

I'm called into a meeting that I"m not paying attention to. I guess I need to get back to work.