LIFE IS NOT FAIR!! but ya know what? nobody ever promised that it would be.
For most of our marriage I have made more than my H and now that I make a small fraction of what he does were splitting up and I am frightened.
No one forced me all those years to do with out and cater to my H's evey whim. Although I would like to think he did... that was my choice. I have to own that. I guess without realizing it I thought if he got everything he wanted at some point he would realize what a GREAT wife I was and see how much I loved him and he would love me back.
What we had is not what God intended marriage to be.
I know it is not going to be easy raising two teenage boys on my salary and child support, but it can be done. No one ever promised life would be easy either.
I think I may be coming out of my funk a little bit. I actually got some MUCH NEEDED house work done this morning. I know I will feel better about myself for letting loose of the death grip I have on this man who does not love me and probably never did.
...and that is all I have to say about that for now. GAL activities the rest of today and nost of the weekend.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
