Damn numbness comes and goes quickly.

I'm sitting at work. My chest is getting tight. I'm short of breath. I just want to curl up and go to sleep.

I've had this nightmare where my W wants to leave before. Thank God she has woken me up, wrapped her arms around me and told me it was just a dream. She loves me. She's never going anywhere.

When is she going to wake me up?!?!?!?! Why can't this just be a bad dream?!?!?!?!!?

Please God, let this just be a BAD dream!

Me: 35
W: 31
S:9
M: 10 years
Together 13
MySitch - Ups & Downs
She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.