No, the job problem is still a problem. The meat business is very nasty, cut-throat. He told our MC 2 yrs ago that it is a 'soul-sucking' job that kills him a little each day...
He had it out with his boss and told him he was ready to quit. However the boss lives in Canada and Dan is basically the boss of everything in Omaha as he is second in command only to the boss. So they will have a hard time firing him since he is in charge of....everything.
That being said he did say he could not live this way any more b/c it is going to kill him. I noticed looking at him that he has probably 20% gray hair now. I don't know the last time I actually took time to look at him, but I know a few months ago he had only 1 or 2 gray hairs at all. It was kind of shocking to see actually.
He said he cannot live this way w/ow anymore or with his job or with his family situation. What has kept him torn in half is that she divorced her husband to be with him. So when he looks at how upset Nathan is he thinks also of her family (she has a son around Nathan's age a little younger I think) and feels guilt. Anyway he said he feels responsible for her being a single mom with no money and even if he knows she made that choice he still feels guilt for his role in it.
He also said he is concerned that the porn thing has been prevalent in his life since college. He doesn't know what that indicates but he knows it isn't good. Thinks it means something else is missing somewhere but he doesn't know what.
Said she is still in KC b/c he doesn't want her up here, he knows that it would never work for them to 'really' be together, mixed family, going to family events, etc etc. He said he NEVER wants our kids to meet her and doesn't want to be involved in her son's life.
He said he cries all the time and has had to walk out of work a few times b/c he just starts crying. He went out with a mentor of his, Doug (one of his 2 main cattle partners and mentors, Doug is in his late 40s, married 20+ years w/kids). Anyway he asked Doug to meet him Monday night and they talked and Dan said he started crying in front of Doug too and had to leave the table. Said he told Doug he thought he should work on making us better again...
There is lots more but the bottom line is he acknowledges at this point that he is screwed up and at the pace he is going now he is headed for an early grave. I told him I will not believe anything without actions which is why he needs to start 'doing the work' to fix us.
