Saffie, my friend. Thank you for your support. Yes those trips actually can dibilate me. As you know exactly what I mean.

Last night I just layed in bed and all I could think about is what he has put me through and continues to put me through. My life with him hasn't been all bad, but when it has been, its been really bad. From the porn, to the emotional abuse, lying, finding letters he wrote someone else, the start of a EA with someone else... Its coming all crashing down.

Yes he is worried about money, but we are ok at the moment. Two months ago we were a lot worse, but we are still ok, not great, but getting some bills paid. Yes I know it does take its toll, but this has always been a stress for us. I just im getting tired of this being his excuse for his treatment of me.

Yes I have your email still. Did you get the picture I sent you?

me: 37
H: 44
Married for 18 years this june
S7
S3
porn issues, and much more... since 7/06

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.