Hey K, your post was amazing.. very poetic! I am glad you have your "head screwed on straight" about all this. Dont be sorry to still have lingering feelings or not hating him, your a compassionate piscean afterall! And yes your bound to be sad for a while as the reality of the extent of his deceit plays over in his mind. I still maintain its because he did still love you and didnt want to lose you, perverse I know, but having been in that place once myself I can understand.. to some extent.
Did you see Priyas post today and yesterday about the Full Moon today? I have turned another little corner last night (another goddamn one!!) I wonder if you have/will. Its here http://www.priyakale.com/blog/
xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread