Well things this past week have been pretty good. After the message I wrote to my W, she's been talking more, seems more animated and engages conversation.
I think the biggest thing that I've noticed is that she laughs more now. I would say it was a good 7 months that I saw her not smile or laugh. So it was nice to see that change.
I'm still doing my own thing, but also encouraging her here and there (words of affirmation).
Oh and she also has been giving me hugs (albeit unsure ones) before I leave for work. Right now she's on an upswing. I know it's going to head back down soon, so I'm just enjoying it while I can.
She does still have those moments where she shuts down and is quiet. So I leave her alone during those times and give her space.
Even though she's not wearing her ring, I can't but help think that she's trying. Or trying as much as she is able to right now. I mean, if she really didn't want to stay in the M, I don't think she would have tried to address some of the things I mentioned in the email. I think she would have just responded back in anger or just said "screw you".
Anyone with any thoughts?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
