Thank you so much for your encouraging post. I know that I sound horrible for whining. I know that there are folks on this board that would give there right arm to have their husbands in bed upstairs. I know that on a certain level how really am lucky but it's just so difficult when they shut down like this. I'm so sorry that you are going through the same thing. I just have to get through to the 18th. The one worry I have is that I'm holding out too much hope for retro and if it doesn't make a difference, I want to believe that I will be strong and "ok" and still be able to fight the fight. It just get's so hard that at times you think.....am I supposed to let go now? When is too much fight a bad thing? I know that no one can tell you that but sometimes I think that hanging on too long can be bad...but...for right now, right this minute I have fight in me. I live one day at a time. So, tomorrow will be another day and I will deal with that when it comes. It's so easier to live life in 24 hour increments. I CAN do for 24 hours what I CANNOT do for a week. Sometimes I think he's just waiting for me to say Uncle. So he doesn't have to be the bad guy.
For now, I'm looking forward to Retro and going to your post to read Sara's stuff. Thanks for the help and God bless your and your family. I really hope things work out for you. Post and let me know what you thought of Retro. I know I'm going to post the minute I get back!!
Take good care...Gina B
M 43 H 34 D 4 H asked for D on 6/21/09:1st D mediation 7/27;D says he wants to try 8/18; *I will stumble, I will fall down but I will not be moved.(N.Grant)
