I would be interested to understand the dynamic that keeps you chasing what, according to your description, is a total loser. I have seen this kind of thing many times. The girl is attracted to a guy that treats her like crap, or a guy that can pull her chain in any direction that he wants.
If what you say is true about your hubby, then you might consider insisting that he see a PDoc for evaluation (and meds). You might want to consider seeing an abuse counsler yourself.
Regardless of what you choose to do, it would be a great idea for you to continue what you have started, and that is to question what, when, and especially WHY things are the way they are in your relationship.
Please continue to post. There are a lot of good people here.
-NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.