Thanks for the cushion tip....I did use a 'cough pillow' in hospital and they made you cough...now that was painful. Current coughing just makes me sore but not excrutiating, thankfully.

Nell, I have found the no contact relatively easy. However, it's easy while nothing out of the ordinary is happening.

I could relate to you wanting to contact H re the interview. It's part of you wanting to be affirmed by him as it has been in the past. It really is best that you don't. It will be great for you to score a job. You would then be more independent, giving H even less control over you.

I have been quite dependant on H in many ways and he has helped me quite a lot but I am now working to become more independent and less reliant on him. Father's Day this Sunday and I don't know what kids have organised, if anything. That's a 180 for me!