Hey Rabbit Oh (((hugs))) for you. Look, like most of us go through, you have hit a down trough. You were riding high on the crest of the wave and now you have crashed - normal, expected.
Stuck is right, I'm afraid. You must hang in there, continue to do as you have been - it's early days and you are so new to DB'ing - you have done so well, so quickly. The plain truth is, none of us know if our WAS will come home and so, facing that truth and despite what your son professes to know, what's the worse that could happen? The worse, in my mind, you have already faced as H has left. Just as you had no control over that happening, you have no control over when or even if H will come back. It's what LBS deal with each day - the reality is, we have to get tough to that and learn to deal ... it's so damned hard and some days are harder than others but that's our lives now and we have no choice - we must march forward with hope and faith in our hearts that one day, things will be different. Maybe they will, maybe they won't but we have to use the interim time to make us the best person that we can be. For us.
Not having kids, I don't know how to advise on your S's behaviour right now, although I'm wondering how he would feel if the tables were turned. Have you told him that you find his comments hurtful and that he is damaging the small repairs that you are making? Sounds like he's not quite on his father's side if he's going to 'get his moneys worth' - hopefully he will not take 'sides' at all but he needs to understand that his role right now should be to support you and not be acting as a 'go between' and the harbinger of doom and gloom. Also, I wonder why your H is telling your S that there's more sh*t coming down ... maybe you could work off the fact that we are all facing sh*t from our Ss all the time and so just prepare yourself daily for what might or might not be thrown at you.
The trouble with all of this is that it is all so very waring - the stress from the whole situation is 'depressing' and stressful but I don't think that you are clinically depressed at this time - be careful and know the difference. If you are not sure, google 'clinical depression' and make sure that you do know. If you display symptoms, get help quickly - if you then believe that you are depressed, don't let it take route. However, I reckon you are on safe ground at the moment.
Glad that you have a new green bag which to house your iPhone in! That's gonna make you feel good when you are out and about! Treating ourselves at this time is important, whatever we can afford, as it's good for our own self-esteem.
I'm glad that others have started visiting your board as you will get a better perspective. Sorry that I wasn't here last night but I got invited out for coffee and didn't get back until fairly late or I would have picked up your current sadness. You will be in bed now as my day is just starting but apart from my interview this morning, I will be around later today, when you get up. We can chat then.
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