My husband suffers from depression and basically the counselor and Dr. told us years ago that it is like an anger depression. After he stood there yelling he left and came back and appoligized. Which even shocked me more. That is the way my S was also acting before he did what he did. He was very very angry and mostly taking it out on me and my H before we separated. Then my S got worse taking it out on me and I kept thinking this is what the H acts like when he is depressed. So I made an appointment with a C for him for the following day but it was too late. He had already tried to take his life.
I have read so much on depression these past 9 months it isn't even funny. But this is the way some people get (angry) and they take it out on the ones they love the most. My S even said yesterday that he was so sorry for taking it out on me and now he knows how H feels and wishes that H would get help.
The kids love H very much and miss the old H.
But H doesn't or didn't realize he was depressed then he said if he was depressed it was the marriage that was causing it. Then after he moved in with his step-mother and father that made it worse because he lied to them so he wouldn't look like the bad guy for leaving his family, which the books and Cs say that is what they do. They don't want to look like the bad guy for leaving and don't want to admit they have something wrong physically. He told me he wasn't happy there either and in May he got his own apartment but there hasn't been much contact since then. Men like to isolate themselves when depressed and from what I hear that is what he is doing.
I just got back from C and she told me to get prepared because it is the time of year that my H usually crashes or comes to his senses when he is like this, but I don't know what to think.
This is his 5th episode with depression and 2nd time he stopped taking his meds and this time he said he is never taking them again. That was at the end of March.
