I feel the same way about stbx. I will always love him, and wish him well. I hope that his future is bright, and that he finds himself, and then someone who compliments him. The final phase of healing, I believe, is the sadness because it equates acceptance. We realize that this person we vowed to be with for our lives is gone, and have made the tough decision to move ahead with our lives, with or without them.
I can't tell you I don't miss my stbx. There are times when I remember how it felt to just be next to him. But I cherish those memories as part of my past, and realize that a future with him is no longer possible. He is not the man I married, and he has changed too much for the worse for me to ever trust him again.
I imagine you are probably going through the same emotions, although the big difference is my stbx never tried to reconcile. I am glad for that because I think that the spouse who attempts the reconciliation and then ultimately bales again is worse than the one who just cuts it clean. My heart breaks that you have to go through this, but you have handled it with style, grace, and a tremendous amount of class.
KUDOS....
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
