Alone, Lost, Unloved & Deserve Better

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I think we all want the same thing. Unconditional Love. I don't think I have had it with my W for a long time.

We are still living under the same roof with our 3 sons. I sleep on the couch. She has divorced my family, my friends. She can't face them because our separation was all her doing. She knows it, they know it. One of the mistakes I did make was telling my family and friends what happened. I know you aren't supposed to because it makes reconcilation that much harder, however, that is something I needed and still need. They have been a great support group for me through this.

Next steps are to keep doing the changes, we are going to Retrouville(catholic marriage encounter) in October.

Really it will come down to if she still wants out, there will come a point where I will just let go and probably file. Not sure she will ever file if it comes to that. I just can't live a platonic, loveless marriage just to stay together for the kids. They need to see a loving family. Right now, they only see mommy and daddy doing separate things(which is her choice). I invite her to everything for which she declines.

With your situation, it sounds like things will just have to run there course. You need to show him you are getting on with your life. No matter how hard it hurts. I have always worked out--that is something to do. I voulenteer now at the American Cancer Society. I got on facebook and reconnected with a bunch of old friends...I take a boxing class now. I do more now than ever with my sons. Just try things you have always thought about..Whatever it takes to get your mind off it for at least an hour....

Be strong. Take Care. Every day it will get a bit better.