Not so much of the "waking" process as much as the process as a whole.
She told me that she knew what was happening wasn't right, and the way she was feeling wasn't right. There was just nothing she could do to stop it. She tried different things to not feel like a total failure, including OD'ing on over the counter drugs.
She told me that the man her H had become through this had quite an impact on her. When she was really down or being a total selfish ass, he would just pack up their boy's things and go out for the day and leave her to her misery. She said that the, what felt like total isolation, was unbearable at times, and after time, she knew that she was in charge of that.
One day she said she walked into their Living Room and H was on the floor playing a game with their kiddies, and she realized that the only thing missing from her fairy tale life was her, and that she was the reason that she was miserable.
That was the first look into the mirror for her. She said when she realized that, she made an appt with a Therapist and started on her issues.
Like most former MLC'ers that I have spoken with, little things slowly revealed themselves to her, and the damage was unfolded to her slowly. Anything less would have caused a major meltdown.
She said that the path of destruction was wide, and it was up to HER to fix it. That she wasn't totally out of the woods yet, and the hardest person to forgive was herself.
But that she had an amazing H ( who DB'ed without knowing it ) and thanked the Lord everyday for him.
She told me that she had seen the same look in her eyes as she did my W's eyes only a couple years previously.
One of more striking things she told me was.....That she had a baby, and when she woke the next morning, he was FOUR.....
